~March+Test+Interview = Sergeant ~

Today is 28/4/10... my 1st day going for police cadet test and interview.

So nervous.
I was studying for the past few days but to me... everything is like useless... cause i have a feeling that they are not going to ask such questions.

On the current day, wearing full-uniform to school, after that Cikgu Firdaus and i go Padang Tembak police Unit 3 FRU.

Sergeant Ismail give us a short brief that morning and then another ASP give us some short lesson before we can start our objective test. The test paper was prepared by JPNPP and PDRM ?! Walao...

After is the March and Command test.After i report to me officer incharge, i was punished for not cut my hair before this day. When my turn, i believe my sound is the loudest of all.  Heheh.
Aathi, another cadet member said i get 23/30 in the March and command part.
Surprising ? I don't know...

After that we all were worrying about the interview part.
Some other schools been ask for singing the Kadet polis song.
some been ask how to solve situation and so on.
Well.. our turn... the Tuan ASP Abdul Aziz bin Samsudin ask me 2 question only and me only they ask.
Q1: In which year that cadet polis MBS been organise?
Answer: Not sure.
Q2: Who is your jurulatih?
Answer : Don't know.

= = after that, he just lecture us, give us advice and express his disappointment of cadet MBS's attendance. After that he said ok .. can dismiss.End of interview..

What the ....? Thats all?

After we leave that room, Cikgu Hanisha said only 1 din't get any promotion, 3 others get Coperal and Shun get Sergeant.
Lol.. then the other one should get a Ribbon for attending, not?

So tired of today.
But at least now, I'm Sergeant Cadet. Like Sergeant Seng Jui, my idol in Cadet Polis when i enter cadet police in Form 1.

~ Ha Ha ha... haha? ~

hmm.. long time i haven't laugh.

Long time i haven't laugh happily.

Where are the laughters that i had during my form4 and form 5?

I miss those times...

But sadly ... time changes.... time changes every thing..

~A Strange Storm, Strange Prophecy , Terrible Future~

Today is 22/04/10

I saw a strange storm in the East Side...

I never see such a storm in my life before.

The clouds are few, but thunder strike every 0.5 second.

By refer back to what i have learn in High School, Thunder strike then will be follow by the sound.

But so many thunder strike down without and sound.

And yet Wei Chuan also discover thunder strike outside the heave cloud and there are no Heavy Wind Blowing at all.

This is not a natural phenomena at all. And suddenly a few drop of tears flow down my cheek.

He also said that some children in US have been discover talking at themselves with unknown language.

Research conclude that some message is given.

China will have the Most Terrible Drought ever around June.

No human can stand the heat and no human are capable to survive in that condition.

1/4 of China will be a wasteland after this.

Other than that, my brother's girlfriend has recording a short video clip.She said that night, she saw a dark round object below the moon without movement. It's like already enter the earth. She thought that was her blurry eyes but there was no mistake.So she taken down a picture. But after she call my brother, the round flying object was gone.

Prophecy said this time, human was extinguish by unbearable hot air. By this coming 9 month, earth will rises the temperature for 4'C.

By 2012 there will be around 12'C. After 2012 December. Mankind will suffer a winter like freeze due to lives that  lost.


My fear has grow stronger and stronger with each info i get.


So many things i haven't accomplish.

The Lord seems to abandon us for our sinful act all these century.
There is nothing we can do to save  mankind, as they are too arrogant to save the earth.

~ No more ~

It's been some time already.
Once again i feel something come back to me.

My heart's pain came back to me.
I never recover from it.
What a cursed life... When i'll be bless?

Well.... if our Father don't allow me to do so... then so be it. i will not deny His will.

Marriage? I heard it is a wonderful place to go.. wonderful life?
Looks like God has forbidden me to go there, like Devil has been forbidden to go Heaven.

Gods will not give everyone with equal treat.. hmm
i believe now... i believe now....

So, for God sake...I will never going to wear Wedding Ring anymore...

~无能~

无能啊。。。废人一个。。。

你叫我如何这样撑下去？？ 6个月你懂吗？

半年咧。。。不是一个很短的时间。。。

妈的。。。。

我得过这样的生活。。。

像废人一个。。。

~Escaping ~

I currently .. escaping .. 

Escaping from what?

Escaping from Corruption...

Escaping from being Light Bulb...

Escaping from being a Jerk...

Escaping from Attraction...

Escaping from being an obstacle.....

Escaping being Keh Poh... 

Escaping from Jealousy

Escaping from Knowing too Much...

Escaping from everything .. everything that i can escape  away from...

~Tree is Apart Now...~

I everyday... riding my motorcycle... looking around everywhere....
most of the vehicles.. who is in the cars?
Some are single drivers...
some are their boy-friend or girl-friend...
mostly are family..
they going out with their family...
a father... a mother... sisters... brothers.. or even grand parents..
they are blessed..

Well.. they live with their happy family...
i so wish that i can have such family like them..
Father, mother and their children walk around in the hypermarket...
jokes around.. having dinner around...
i so envy the live.... the moment they have..
the moment that everyone having with their family..

I had a family like this before...
but... now..
my mum and dad want to meet each other not because they miss each other or love each others...
they fighting for properties...trying to divorce within this few month
argue..blame...scold... complain... why my family have to go through this ?


i am the youngest of all in my family...
but now.. i heard from my mum... 
i had a younger sibling already...
It might be 1 year old right now...
and... this child... this Child is not from my own Mum...
What the hell is happening with my family...

How can rely on my family now? Troubles here and there... what i left are my other 3 elder brothers and my mother... i couldn't trust my dad now...no matter how famous he was.
I feel great shame for what he's doing... and i feel shameful as his Son...


As i write this now.. i promised to God that i will not act like what my father did in this live... bullied my mom, used my mom, get affair outside... I will not do all these in my entire live..
That is my word and i will never be like him.. Never !

"Tormented Soul"

Tormented soul...
Torturing myself..
Torturing my own soul...

I cannot free myself...
It's so difficult to breath...
Torment comes to my soul through my eyes and ears...
no where i can run
no where i can hide.

I could have cry out loud... for least...
Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Bad Friday ~

I was just about going to watch Clash of the Titans.... because i'm having a holiday today.... 2/4/10... Good Friday

But this year.. Good Friday is a cloudy day and also a rainy day.. argh... not good at all..

Went to Swang Meng with Amos Lim and Jackie Yeoh. Playing Left 4 Dead 2 until around 6pm.. o gosh... i'm almost late for movie... but nevermind, i didn't buy ticket. But hoh... heavy rain wor... 
zzzz...
Quickly fetch Amos back home and take shelter at his place.. when nearly 9pm... go to have Dinner at Xin Lai Lai with Amos... 

When going back home, was planning to get my jacket... cause I know night time cinema sure is very cold.. even though i can take that cold.


But something happen in the middle of the progress... and somemore... heavy rain.. again...
lol...
i hate this GOOD FRIDAY... Not good at all... Not good.
Now my mum is coming back from KL.. = =


But it's ok i think.. cause i get a God-Sister today.