~你心中这个特别的朋友是谁? ~

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此…但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许他为了顾及家人的意思，你们没有在一起。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂珍惜对方。
也许你们回头太迟，对方已不在等待。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已有了另一个人。
也许你们在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比对朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能名正言顺的牵着手去逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会祝福他，但心里却不是很清楚，你是不是真的希望他追到。他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安慰他们说你和他只是朋友。但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人一辈子，心中都有一个这么特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心做朋友，但久了，突然发现这样最好。你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起之后，有一天会分手。你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此才不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。特别是这样，你还是知道，他会永远关心你。做不成男女朋友，当他心中那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？

很多的感情都因为一厢情愿，最后都因为对方一句喜欢你，如果你没反应，这一段友情似乎难以维持下去。这也难怪有些人不敢踏出第一步。因为这就是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就是连朋友都当不成…呢？

～我是还记得的, I will still remember ～

有几句话，我特别会记得。好奇怪哦：

"冠循，其实，你很弱，若我想把你弄倒，很容易罢了"

"若到一些地步，一起掉进陷井，我也能逃脱，因为那陷井是我自己挖的，我当然知道出路。"

"若有争吵，我要加油加醋，让那火更大一些。"

"2010年，要玩一些手段，要让些人没有了职位，没有了一切"

"我的人是这样的，若我没办法得到，我也不会让别人得到和我一样的东西"

"在中华，我所做的都得一一小心，我才可以逃脱，别人也不会知道是我"

惨了，背书都没那么厉害。

哇佬，你还真厉害咧，好多手段，来了MBS，新地方新生活，但人还是不改。我真的得多多向你学了。谢谢哦

～就这样吧，没关系的～ to someone

哦？你会有心能碎？
哈哈。。。骂你？我哪里敢浪费你的“宝贵”时间?




别忘了一件事，我你都是中华生。你在中华的底，我也不是傻瓜，什么都不知道。你别忘了，我是谁，我在什么团体出身的，是你模不清我，不知道我常做的事。至于你认为你自己没被任何人摸清很光荣。哈哈。“五千”是懒得睬你这些小花样，不是不够你斗，后面班的还比你强的多了。


对！这一次我太相信你了，把一切不该讲的，讲给你听。
愚蠢的我，现在，我胸口的痛会来缠着我了。
自从巧薇离开后，我痛了好一阵子。每晚无法入睡，我必须每晚痛两三个小时,现在又复发。
高兴了吧？你嬴了。我拍手给你


我到死都会记得：“冠循，其实，你很弱，我想把你弄到，一点都不难”…很熟吧这句话？


记得哦，你是看眼识人,看别人想什么…我需要吗？你自己才知道了。


“他把我给他的良心当狗肺。”请问你帮过我什么？


哈。。。你说过什么，你自己知道。你怎样弄到箭头都能指向BOB，你自己知道。这一点，我可要多多学你了。


哈哈。谢谢喔，去年在我和Alice Lim面前说了那么多“故事”
"2010年，我得玩些手段，让某些人失去职位；有吵架的，我就要加油加火，让它火更大"


我读书不行，但这些“废物”我记得的。我是做兵，我带头的，营里的都比你强，你是谁？林志敏，你是不可能摸得清一个人的，你会不会把自己看得太高了吧？哈哈

Grey = ?

I think... i really have changed... but i dono when did i changed...

after my birthday?
after CNY? after Valentine ?

Am i  insane already ? or  .... i cannot be trusted anymore ?

i wish i would have known what monster have i turn into...

i just know one thing... my old pain that everynights haunts me like a ghost... came back... is that a mistake that i study form6 ?

i only feel grey colour around me.... zzz.... no other colours...

~ My 19th Birthday ~

Weird day.. wonderful day.. Happy day... but most important is .. it is my birthday.. my 19th birthday... my 2nd celebration since when i'm 12years old, with my grandma...now is with my friends, form6 classmates.

If isn't Lay Chia keep on persuade me to go have lunch with them... i would have been staying at home, staring at my pc... thanks Laychia, you have successfully persuaded me to go for my 2nd celebration.

After school dismiss, i have been "kidnap" to PizzaHut in PranginMall. KokWai "put" me in his car and keep on driving. Meanwhile Zixian is ahead of us. A the same time, Huiying and JooTiew were in another car, securing this "crinimal".

I'm so sorry to Laychia, who persuaded me to come for this celebration but herself cannot attend... haiz... sorry Laychia..

They bought a cake for me... yor..i told u all no need oredi ma but the cake really nice in taste and also decoration.

JooTiew and Huiying order a big set of dono what what pizza.

We drink,, we chat.. we shoot every people..hahaha

JooTiew still trying to push my head to cake hah....

so childish..This is the 2nd time i celebrate  with anyone..

Thanks guys.. i gonna very appretiate   this celebration.. it's been a very meaningful celebration to me. Thanks thanks and thanks. Love you guys ^^

And also.. thanks to everyone who wished me Happy Birthday.. some get my reply, some didn't... so sorry... my phone out of money and battery. Thanks too ...

What a wonderful birthday i had in 19th years. Special Thanks to: KokWai, JooTiew, HuiYing  and Zixian. My birthday is special this year.

~ why ? ~

oh... what the bloody fucking shit ?

now only i know...
Heh...
Am i just a tool ?
Am i so easily to let go ? Like how you able to do?
no...
I'm not like you...
Thats why ... you always said i'm cannot compare with you.. you always get the most injury while i'm mourning when i get only little scratch... I'm so weak...
But you forgot something... you able to lift it up and put it down easily while i can't. How many success you had? how many injure you get?
But at least you happy before...
well... i never happy before... what i get is just the SAME, OLD FUCKING SITUATION  !
if i really so annoying all the time.. just tell me that i annoy you alot, and i'll shut my mouth up.. not need to find a tool for me .