~ Perhaps ~

Perhaps, I should not lend a hand in the very first place. 
     So that no one will think I'm just an extra hand in the second place.

Perhaps, I shouldn't have to help anyone at all.
     So that I will not be a rubbish bin to them in the end.


Perhaps, I should not teach them to think.
     So that I don't have to think of solution of their problems later.


Perhaps, I should not help them to analysis at all.
    So that I will not cause problem for myself later.


Perhaps , I should Have Let them to Die and rot.
   So that I don't need to care about their lives at all.


Perhaps , I should not be doing good at all.
     So that I am not bad when I did wrong. 


Perhaps......
   I should have stand on my own ground and mind my own business will do. All these are just another ways to put pain on my own ass.



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